I jumped like Spot when we saw Spot jump in the past in the books in the primary school. That was when we had a tomato in the classroom and the sun shone in the windows while I wrote with a blue training crayon. When Lego was large and I was small with big ideas that turned out to be smaller than the large Lego in my tiny hands…. WHAT?

I say, I say, I say… but quite often I don’t really get my point across when the point is blunt and just beyond the threshold of new lands in ironic landscapes in the desert of ideas that never came to fruition.

*sigh*… oh, and again, I wonder what it is to be alive.

Ah, I love holidays with nothing to do but what I feel like doing when I feel like doing it. Lazy, lazy, lazy!

Went for a ride on the Reisling Trail this morning from Auburn to Clare and back. It was a good ride but I’m buggered now. It took about 2 1/2 hours.

Reading a book at the moment… it’s not bad, but it’s not great. It’s called Geomancer or something. Standard fantasy stuff… good holiday reading.

Woot!

Me thinks I did okay this semester despite bursting into flames and smouldering for a few months like a beach fire buried by sand… only, unlike a beach fire there was no party before with jubilant exultation and revelry from which to bask in wine soaked memories while the hangover seeps in.

So, anyway, my results were pretty much as I expected but with a slight twist. I got the GPA I was expecting for this year (6.75) but in one course I did worse than I thought, and in another I did better by some miracle of administrative addition.

• Advanced editing and publishing — High Distinction (arrogantly expected)
• Advanced techincal writing — Distinction (What the!?). I was expecting a credit because I screwed up.
• Reading and writing poetry — Distinction (Hmm, unexpected but still good)

GPAwise it all equates to the same thing, so I’m happy.

I got an assignment back today… the one that I let slide. I did alright considering how much I let things go—got a credit. I haven’t had a credit in ages… I can live with a credit, because if I get my shit together there is still a chance I can pass the rest of the course with a distinction average, which is my usual standard. Even if I pass the course with a credit, I can live with that too because my gpa will balance out with one of the HDs from last semester. It’s all good.

Since I dumped Friendly Street my stress levels have dropped quite a bit, which is good. It’s freed my mind up for other more important things. I’ve just got to let things wash over me and move on. Life is too short.

I’m letting go of a lot of stuff right now so that I can just relax a bit. Many things have been getting to me lately, even though they probably shouldn’t. I just need to take a breath and say, ‘fuck it’, then let it all go. Just get back to basic Raph for a while.

This semester is almost over, thankfully. I’m just not into it all right now, and I’m starting to have some major concerns about what to do once I graduate.

I’ve looked at various options, but I can’t think straight enough right now to make concrete decisions about what direction to take. Probably when this semester is over, and I’ve had a month away from study, I’ll have a clearer idea.

It’s only a few more weeks until the break. Surely I can last that long without going completely mad… and then next year I only have two courses left to do. And then I’ll be free. WOOT!